unfathomable

sometimes i just feel that i dont know what i want or even understand myself.

i may be satisfied with certain things, look jovial on the exterior

but yet im not feeling the joy deep inside me.

i should be glad that someone is sweet enough to be so giving in to me at times.

but thats not entirely what i want..

perhaps..

is all those bit and pieces of stuffs he did or said.

i dont need physical companion..

i want our hearts and souls and minds to be interlocked with each other.

Guess is all my greediness.