Bits & Pieces . . .

luckily, there's one more pack of cigarettes in my drawer
otherwise i dunno wad will become of me.

frm ytd night till now, im feeling down. real down..
over a stupid trivial thing. we can be angry with each other.
all bcoz of me.. he told me to wash all his clothes in our laundry bag.
i agreed as lan lan oso have to do one..
dan got a call frm claudin to meet her at interchange.
so i bathed n as im afraid i wont b hme in time to do e washing, i merely washed one top n one brief for him. isnt gd enuff?
i noe i cant fulfil my small little promise but at least i tried to do smething right..

when i reached e bus stop to tk bus to interchange, dan plan changed.
she told me she cant get away frm wrk, she was still at town then.
so we cancelled e meeting n i told her i be gg facial at my neighbourhood.
n i tot tt aft e facial session i will be returnin hme n dan i be able to wash his clothes.
but who noes, she called me right aft my facial to meet me at interchange again..
so i rushed dwn to meet her..and i confessed i forgotten completely abt e washin clothes thing.

i returned hme ard 8+ close to 9pm.. was already very tired..still didnt rem to wash his clothes.
dan he came hme.. and all e problems started rolling ard 11+pm..
he complained tt i cant even do a small thing for him. why cant i wash his clothes when i reached hme at 9pm and i will be able to hang e laundry ard 11pm..
thru out all his comments, i kept quiet.
and i quickly gathered his clothes together wif mine to bring for washing.
dan he started nagging away.. saying.. nw wad time liao. u still wan wash? ltr who wan hang e laundry? dan i replied me la.. dan he asked u no nid go sch tml dan?
i bo chap him coz i think is my fault so i juz washed e clothes n waited for it to be done n carried on wif my laundry.

dan he was there, throwing tempers.. i seriously cant stand.
i alreadi heeded pple advice to keep myself cool whenever there's smething blewing.
but i realised i juz cant be nice to some pple. e more i gif in, e more they wan eat me.
so when i realli buay tahan, i cursed him.. nbcb etc.. not alot. i think oni 2 short sentences. he heard it, i noe. he didnt care n he went to sleep.

today, met him at claudin's wrkplace. he reached ard 4+pm. my mom was dere too.
he treated me damn bloody cold thru out. i was awared of his attitude, i bo chap.
when my mom tok to him regarding some wedding stuffs, he replied to my mom in a very rude way lor. not i sensitive i tell u. for his character normally he wont talk to my mom in tis way. i tell u, u can be xiao lan with me but NEVER NEVER do it to my mom especially. i realli hot i tell u..

when everything ends, my mom asked me in e lift.. where am i gg nw? i told her i wan to go back tampines hse.. dan dunno why he said in those threatening manner.. go hme la.. wha i tell u i realli HOT ar.. so i gif him bk his hp and when we stepped out of e lift.. i walked together with him. claudin n my mom was luff away. tot im juz kidding. seriously im not okie. is all bcoz claudin said her colleague's car no space for 3 of us.

dan nvm, me n him walk to somerset mrt. i wanted to tk e train bk tamp. he fan me to tk train bk to wdlands. he meeting his mom dere. i wan to sit alone in e train cabin he oso don allowed. he keep calling my hp to ask me to go over his seat there to sit dwn. fine, i went up n sit besides him. we didnt tok. i closed my eyes playin mp3 damn loud to vent my anger.

finally, we reached wdlands. tt ku ku island. we were very far apart frm each other while walkin to causeway pt. met his mom, sis n sis's hb at courts. forced myself damn hard to bring myself to smile to his mom. aft tt, i sat dwn, continue venting anger on my mp3 n my eardrums. seriously im bored over there. buying one sofa, do u need so many pple to go? i feel tt since im e one payin i dont need so many pple to tag along. for wad sia? but nvm.. i hang ard dere lor. i tell u, once we reached dere he simply treat me like AIR. knn.. trying to prove wad? can bully me in front of his family? he muz be crazy if he thinks this way. i dun give ani damn to ani one when im realli angry i tell u. frm courts go to seahorse dan frm dan go back courts again. thru out e shopping for sofa.. he whispered in my ears kept saying wad i attitude problem girl etc.. i endured. finally after they made e purchase, he still ask me wan eat wad? tell u im angry fulled enuff dun feel ani hunger liao. i tell him nicely i dun wan to eat anithing. he suggested gg pizza hut. his sis they all wan packet hme to eat. dan they go ahead lor.. when we were heading the lift to his sis's hb car.. i was 40cm away frm them. he DIDNT even wait for me okie. Im Juz like A DIRT SIA. i seriously very hot liao. i wanted to walk away quietly. but i tink is very rude to his mom n sis.. so i cleared my throat and i said.. Auntie...... his mom turned ard n look at me. i told her bye bye im gg home. she asked.. u gg home ar? dan i said .. ya im gg home now bye bye..

so i juz took e escalator dwn and headed out of CWP. had a smoke outside metro.
hp was silent all the way. no one came to look for me. actually wanted to tk cab hme fast. but, think again. im angry but why shd i be so angry with my pursestrings? so i went to tk 168. E waiting time for 168 was damn long. i sat dwn. got a few smses but all nt frm him. for almost 30 minutes has passed, nth came frm him. So when e bus arrived, i tell myself i wan to go, i haf to go bk my hse.

got in e bus. was so crowded. luckily got a seat.. sat dwn n was almost dozing off. my hp rang. he called me, i answered. he said im realli so tough(sturbborn) aR? u wan come back cck now? i told him in monotone tt im alreadi in 168 otw hme how to go back his hse.. he asked wha u realli ar.. dan u alight at jalan kayu n tk 168 bk to wdlands n tk train bk to cck. crazy right. dan i say dunwan. 2mintues, he hung up.

i continue to slp thru out e journey. finally got hme.. aft 1hr of peace.. he started again.. call me, i answer. He asked me to go back his hse despite e fact im already at Tampines hse at 10pm. He is SIao lang la........ dan he said i simply walked away like tt. wad will his mom think? come on, if i were to go hme with him juz nw. i definitely be feelin super lousy one. y do things to make myself suffer? i shdnt do tt right? to make myself better of coz i have to leave. i told him clear tt i wan to go hme bcoz i dunwan to quarrel with him at his hse. he isnt satisfied with tt answer. he started wanking over dere. when i realli bth i started cursing n i hang his phone.

till nw, he is still bombing my hp. i alreadi on it to silent. he still call. i off liao he still call n sms me. he even call my hse, thank god i plucked off the wire.
sms me saying, im childish to go away like tt. sayin wad if next time i nt happi when i married dan i oso go back tamp? LOL. u tink nw i still wan to harbour e tots to go ahead with e marriage? Ask me to ans his call otherwise he will come dwn my hse. come dwn come dwn la, u tink i scare? i can always leave e hse anitime, i can locked e wooden door, can lock my room door. he kept sms emphasising ans or call him nw, dont let him go back tampines. i BTH la, i replied asked him to leave me alone. he ask wad leave u alone? Simple English dun understand?

when i tell him im gg to do my Accounts revision for my CA on Monday and aft tt i be gg to sleep. i alreadi assured him i wont be gg out aniwhere.
he replied ask me don tell him wad CA. sae i didnt go sch oso.
can i pls grow up or nt. he don like pple tt wont keep their promise. even is a small thing. hw can we marry if i everytime went hme when im nt happy.
oso said if i nvr hit him hard juz nw, he oso wont hit me de lor.

come on la. so wad i hit him. he's a man leh.. abit say pain. pain muz hit me back la. knn. he used 7210 n knocked onto my thighs. and it is swollen blue black nw lor.

fuck it la. i dun give a damn
wad hse buy liao.. wad shit is tis.