Bits & Pieces . . .

20 dec
fishin trip on thursday mornin.
it was raining for quite awhile after we set out.
this time, i bought coke to drink durin the fishin session.
got a ACK fish myself. well. the fish i caught isnt very big.maybe oni a palm size.
but still is my prize for e day. :)
many things happened tt day while on boat.
ah kiat's rod broke into half. ah heng's gar cap dropped into sea.
haha. wensan overeat our lunch.

21 dec
had a fight with him. becoz i was supposed to go out with my pals to midnite ktv.
n i nv ask him for P E R M I S S I O N. this is absolutely madness i tell u.
what is e definition of marriage? must seek permission? did i ever ask him to ask me anithing for permission to go out? haiz. can u imagine, he even resorted to threaten me by using violence? no not on me, but on e furnitures. n threaten to hurt himself. n he did. i laughed away to spite him to stop doin tt. n guess he was hurt by my actions. almost gg 6 mths in a few days time we are married, n tts how long i have nvr go out with tt bunch of frens together. esp irene n dagen i have nv see them since then. i really miss them so much. but he don understand. im stayin in wdls with a few frens but they are diff u c, im not as close as those frens stayin in wdls. of coz, im oso close to our mutual frens. but is still nt the same. how would u feel if u kip turning dwn ur frens when they ask u out? sighs. im so hurt. im deprived from the rights to see my frens during e night. can u imagine, if i go out with my frens during e day, n by nightime, i am supposed to say sorry, i nid to be hme, bye n i juz leave them? of coz, i wont bear to leave them n go hme rite. wad is e fuckin problem man. seriously, i do have some regrets to bond myself in marriage. i cant see my family as n when i like. i cant c my pals as n when i like animore. if i can turn back e time, i would choose to be a run away bride. how i wish .
from ytd till nw, im as hurt as before. yes, i noe, we still love each other very much otherwise he oso cant caused me to hurt tt much. but seriously, e way he love me is wrong. very wrong. i don think i will be able to celebrate this year christmas as happy as before. i dont tink will i be touched by any of his actions in this period. i dont tink i will be happy without my pals. he just dont understand.